The Pound That Broke the Fat Girl's Back

You know me. I'm the fat girl that skinny girls make fun of. People look at me and think "Wow, she must eat an entire pizza by herself and come back for seconds." I don't have an hourglass figure, it's more like the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man's figure. Up until now, I tried to embrace my curves. I hid behind clichés like "Dogs want bones. Real men prefer meat." I pretended to not mind that clothes in my size were designed to hide us rather than flatter us. I took joy in not having to follow diets, but was inevitably left unhappy not being able to take pictures. After all, the cameras add 10 pounds, and for fat girls this means it adds another ten pounds of fat! I fooled myself into believing for a long time that it didn't matter that I was fat, even as I kept gaining more weight. I used excuses to cover up my lack of willpower to change. I didn't have time, I was too busy, it wasn't my fault, all bogus excuses nonetheless.
But today I snapped! I can honestly admit that I am tired of being the fat girl. I am tired of running out of breath at the smallest of chores. I am tired of not being able to wear clothes from regular stores, of having to hide behind curtains called clothes. I am tired of not being happy in my own skin. I hate having to take pictures of everyone else and never feeling pretty enough to take a picture of myself. I hate that I wear a size 22! Yes, there, I said it. I wear a size 22! How horrible is that?! But worse yet, I hate knowing that the power to change all of this is in my own hands and I haven't done a thing about it......until now!
I refuse to be the fat girl any longer! I choose to get off my lazy fat butt and do something about it finally. It's not about a fad diet, it's about changing my eating habits. No more sweets, no more soda, no more eating late. It's all about smart choices, eating every 2-3 hours to quicken my metabolism, and it's about portion control. Someone once told me that I shouldn't be eating portions larger than my fist. Good advice that I am going to put into practice.  It's time to get active! No one ever got ahead by sitting on their butts. I ordered the Zumba DVDs and I am looking forward to shaking my tush and having fun while losing weight.
Why share this with the world? This will push me to do what I am saying I will do. It's forever recorded on the internet, so the last thing I will want to do is go back on my words and keep being the fat girl. And maybe, just maybe, my story can be hope for another fellow fat girl. It can show that we are not alone in the struggles with our weight and body image. And that if we feel like someone else can do it, so can we.
So here it is, the first of many posts following me on my journey to weight loss. No surgeries, no fad diets, no ephedrine pills or anything like that. Just the good old fashioned way, healthy eating habits and exercise. It will be a hard road for me, and a slow journey as well, but the final destination is so worth it! So join me in looking at my "Before" picture below and Say Goodbye to the Fat Girl.